This week I havent done much at all,just stayed in,been trying to sort my money problems out,I really cant believe how much my bank charges me for being over drawn,in the last 4 weeks its been just over £500,,how the F*** do they expect people to get back on track charging that kind of money,,this mounts to be about £1300 since September,,,,ridiculous!
Luckily though I should be getting all my charges back from the last 6 years,which I didnt even know about until last November,,so if I didnt know about it then surely theres others that dont know,,so theres something to look at if anyone is experiencing the same.Im counting on that money so I can clear off somewhere nice and just chill.
Well apart from that Im now thinking whether part of me is actually schizophenric,,just because of what my eldest daughter just said to me.Last night about 3am <<scary time I heard one of my recycling bins being kicked just outside my back garden,as I sit next to the back window I turned the back light on straight away but didnt see anything/anyone.I was on edge because of the time it happened,then about 30minutes later I heard a mans voice in the back raising his voice,,like he'd been drinking,,that made my heart beat a bit faster,I darent look after that,I left the living room light on and took some candles up to bed,I put my bedroom light on got into bed and read for a bit,,heard another noise but not sure what that one was,,then heard like someone putting a key into my front door,,I didnt know if it was someone/thing from spirit or someone real trying to get to me,,I normally keep a hammer in my bedroom just in case we ever had a burglar but it wasnt there the only other thing I could think of using was hairspray,so that was right next to my bed.Then I heard like deep sigh.There are times like this I never know if Im gonna wake up or not but I did fall asleep.
I told this to my eldest this morning and she said,,thats just like schizophenric though,I said to herif you heard a voice that sounded real but no-one was there would you think that,,she said yeh,,she said she likes to hear other views on voices,,I just said,,schizophenia is just a 'medical' term for psychic ability,,,but,,,maybe I have a bit of both,,I dunno :/ Maybe I should contact Dennis Binks,the psychic I went to see and will be seeing at the ghost hunt in Wales next month.
I hear alot of tapping on my windows,mostly during the nighttime,and once heard like men cheering,like they were at a footy match just outside my front window,,this was like middle of the night,2ish 3ish,,I heard a growl from abig cat at the bottom of my stairs,,Ive said for years that an old man walks my stairs with a big cat and I say its a mountain lion,Ive seen someones arm wave to me in a shadow on the wall,,,,these things happened whilst I was in a manic stage but some others have seen and heard stuff in my house,a friend of mine in November saw another shadow of an arm and that was like the person was sitting in my arm chair and just raised their arm,he also saw a shadow of someone sitting next to my pc,,so,,hear I go again and gonna contridict myself,,maybe I dont have schizo or should I say part of it.
I wont get any real answers unless I do something about it,so calling Dennis is the right thing to do I think.
Adios mwah xx
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