Anyway now Ive said all that,I have some exciting news.Im going on a ghost hunt with top psychic Dennis Binks yayyyyyy wooohooo I am absolutley estatic with excitement,Ive always wanted to go on a ghost hunt,its down South Wales and at the moment Im hoping they ask if anyone wants to go off on their own,,bcoz I would! Well as long as I wasnt in complete darkness,,,things are more spooky I think for a medium.So thats the last weekend of February,,a while yet,and hopefully I can stay on for 5 days after for a mediumship course with Dennis 
My insomnia has come back,,Last June I had to start taking anti-psychotics to get me through the period that I 'normally' get sectioned which is Sept,,,,,it would have been the fifth year running,but yay I didnt get sectioned,but carried on with the pills until the week of my birthday and since then I either take sleeping pills to sleep or I go bed and toss and turn for upto 2 hours,,last night as my girls wasnt here I didnt take the pills or go bed,,,till,,7am I said to my mum today that my mind has never been in the position its in now,,being stronger than ever and nothing clouding my judgement and my mind has to get used to the fact of that and needs to adapt to alot of things,not just sleep.Last year to me,was the last ever year I will be sectioned,,this year is the year for making my dreams come true and if not during this year,,then next year,I will become known 
This is part of my dream,of course,,always felt I would be.I think Ive said this statement somewhere on my blog but I no-way want to be better than anyone else,,I want to be the worlds most psychic person,,,for me,,to help people,,,to get Justice for those living and deceased,,,theres more spirit out there that wants Justice for their death/murder and Ive only Prayed and wished/dreamt/thought for years to be able to do this,,someone that can see them in full body form and get 100% messages.There are a couple of spirits that have been with me for a decade that are just waiting for the time to come.One of them has told me everything about his murder,,and theres speculation that he didnt commit suicide and that he was murdered but I have to wait.Time is on our side,,because it will happen.
I love God and Thank him for my hardtimes,,,,theres always someone worse off and I think about them when I get in my warm bed,or eat just a slice of bread,,I eat for the hunger,I drink loads of water and just having that 'knowing' I have a spirit inside me that is drinking that water,I 'know' I have spirit inside and they taste certain food for the first time,,its like my first time,,they sometimes choke so I help them out. I have had plenty of training in rehab with this,,,,,how can I be what I wanna be without having gone 'mad' with it,,but a decade of learning how to cope with so many spirit inside has paid off,Im aware of when they are there.Can anyone imagine,having say,,,one person controling an arm,one controlling speech,one controlling the legs and God knows how many inside my mind talking to me at the same time,,its quite bizarre but in a way its fantastic because its part of what I am and what I wanna be.
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